so there once

was a boy that made me smile.
he tells me i'm pretty.
and that i'm worth while.
i like him.
i like him a lot.
=]
just so ya know its not gonna happen.
we're just super good friends.
♥

a little poem a wrote the day after

its kinda mean but it was the day after can you blame me?
i just want you to know i still love you.

i just want you to know i still care.

i just want you to know you still mean the world to me.

i just want you to know i can hardly look at you.

i just want you to know its hard to talk to you.

i just want you to know i will always be here for you.

i just want you to know i will kick any girls ass who hurts you.

i just want you to know i can't live without you.

i just want you to know i hope we can get back together.

i just want you to know i've never been so hurt in my entire life.

i just want you to know i miss you more than everything.

i just want you to know i wish you luck when my brother finds out.

:)
yeah its bad but umm yeah.

heartache

So, Andrew broke up with me tuesday night on account of rumors. The rumor said that i cheated on andrew with a friend of mine (who is a guy). the rumor is completely false. but i guess a number of people came up to him and told him it was true and gave him "evidence" that it was true. so he decided to believe them over me. it just really hurts that he doesn't trust me. after all that we had been through he decides to listen to other people. i'm not sure who started the rumor, but i have a very good idea. and if it's who i think it is emily will not be happy. its been about 2 days and i think he might already have another girlfriend. now that REALLY hurts. i thought he really cared about me, but apparently he didn't. i mean i'm sure he cares about me just not as much as i thought i guess. he told me he still wants to be great friends which is really really hard for me. i don't want to be his friend i want to be his girlfriend but obviously i can't. i hate high school. and according to tony he's too good for me and andrew should have broke up with me a long time ago. some of you might think 4 months isn't a long enough time to really love each other, but it is. so it really hurts to see him flirting with other girls so soon. i don't think i will love again, but god has a bigger plan. he knows what he's doing. everybody has their hard times. i just don't know what to do. some people say i shouldn't be friends with him anymore that he doesn't deserve it. others want to kill him. i feel so confused and hurt. thanks for reading this rather depressing blog.

awww ♥

me and eden ♥

oh boy

so its been a long time since i've posted. things aren't much different. except guard is over, i'm a senior and i have an unbelievable boyfriend. thats about it. being a senior is pretty cool. my parents are being cooler. brandon and i are closer. so yeah thats pretty much it. if you have questions let me know. i love questions. i'm bored.

stuff...i guess

well...not much to say. everything is pretty good here. kimberly had her baby. a beautiful baby girl named Marilyn Grace Dahle. she is the cutest thing ever. hmm school is over so thats nice. i was going to try out for j'n'co but i didn't. i kinda reliazed i wasn't what they were probably looking for so yeah. i went to spirit west coast last month. that was a ton of fun. i saw a lot of good bands. and the first week of summer i went and saw anberlin, terminal, saosin, code seven and acceptance. that was a ton of fun as well. terminal is like my new favorite band. they are just soo cool. and umm yeah. i am starting to back to youth group. i miss it a lot so i am going back. yeah...i guess thats it.

Excitement!!

Hello people!! My older brother Brandon is coming home on Monday!! I am really really excited! Dance is awesome! Dance show is coming up!! I am really excited! I am in 4 dances!! Our Colorguard piece is amazing! We do a bunch of creepy stuff!! Well, sorry I haven't posted in awhile I just haven't had anything to really say. God is super amazing. He is totally turning my life around!! He knows what I am going to do in life and I just have to trust him. Kimberly is having her baby in May. I am pretty excited about that too. Her and her boyfriend will be moving back to Paso, close to my house too!! Her baby shower was last Saturday she got a lot of really neat stuff!! My brother Ben's birthday was the 23rd so that was cool. For my birthday my dad said I could get a mini iPod if I raise half the money. They cost $299. I have $72. And I still have to get paid for some stuff. My mom got a job at Kohl's. She was employee of the month and has been promoted!! It is awesome. She isn't home a lot anymore so that bites. I have been cooking a lot. I am hoping to try out for Jazz 'n' Company for next year. So pray for that. I am really into photography now. It is cool. Well I better go. God Bless.

Long TIme

Ok, Sorry I haven't blogged in a REALLY long time. I have been busy and I forgot i had a blog. Well nothing new is really going on. my brother comes home next month-hopefully. so i am super excited about that. dance show is coming up! which will be awesome. i am in 4 dances so it will be fun. ummmm i can't really think of anything else. over the past couple of weeks i have become good friends with nathan. he is really cool. and he has his moments sure but so far he is awesome. and we have the same opinon about a ton of things. which is cool. sarah is coming over tomorrow to hang out. way fun stuff. hmm what else. i think that is about it . oh i read a book called The Wedding. it was really good. it is a follow up to The Notebook. so it was really good. and i finally saw the movie The Notebook. i cried. i got it for valentines day too. well i gotta go. talk to you later.